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I started this blog several years ago as an outlet. To whomever reads my blog, I hope you are encouraged. I do my best to keep it short, so it can be a breath of fresh air.

Tuesday, May 31, 2016

Attitude

Tonight in our home Bible study the lesson was about Attitudes. I wish I could tell you as the scriptures were being read tonight that I was the model Christian. I'm not. I have days, a lot of them, when I fail in this area. Every night I ask God to forgive me of my sins because I know I am not perfect and have made mistakes. I'm trying to have the fruit of the spirit in my daily life. Some days I get it, other days I don't. I'm thankful that God's mercies are new every morning. I'm also thankful that my mom felt well enough to attend our home Bible study tonight. God is good.

Monday, May 30, 2016

In Memory

Today is Memorial Day. The malls had their sales and if it wasn't raining, people had their BBQ's. All these things are good and it's ok to participate in them. We need to make sure that we stop and take time to pay respect and give honor to those who have gone on before us. This is also a day to express our gratitude for the men and women who have died fighting for the freedom we enjoy today. I want to add to that. I want to remember those who have died for the cause of Christ. Christians all over the world are dying because of their faith. I give honor to them for they are fighting the good fight of faith. To every military man/woman who died so that I may worship freely, I say thank you. God is good.

Sunday, May 29, 2016

Calm Sunday

Today we all attended church. The Wilbanks Singers were there and they performed their most well known songs. I like it when Sis. Wilbanks testifies, she always connects with the people and with God. We rejoice for the 3 that were baptized today. When service was over, we went home for a day of relaxation. God is good.

Saturday, May 28, 2016

A BBQ For Mom

Today we decided to enjoy the beautiful weather and have a BBQ in the backyard. It was nice to see my mom outside enjoying the sunshine and eating a hot dog. I love my mom and was glad to hear her laugh again. She tires quickly, so I'm glad she can get rest whenever she needs it. One day at a time, one step at a time. God is good.

Friday, May 27, 2016

Settling In

Today we unpacked my mom's things and helped her get settled into her new home with us. We are learning  the new normal having mom here. It's nice being able to see her every day.  She has some really good days and on other days wears out quickly. I know God is healing her and am confident she will be able to do all the things she would like to do. Hopefully by her birthday she will have the energy and strength to have a picnic in one of her favorite spots on Long Island. Please keep the prayers coming. I'm glad she's here and I know she will pull through this. God is good.

Thursday, May 26, 2016

Uncle Bob

Today, Bob and I attended the funeral for his Uncle Bob. The viewing line went out the door and remained that way for several hours. Kind words were spoken about him during the funeral service. He was loved my many. His kids surrounded their mom with a wall of love and support. He would have been proud of them today. As we were headed to the burial site, we drove under a flag salute given by the fire department. He was a volunteer fire fighter for many years. Uncle Bob also served our country. The bugal and gun salute was very moving. At the end of the ceremony we all placed a flower on his casket. It hurt my heart deeply to see Aunt Margaret crying so hard. They had been married for 60 years. Whenever we came by to visit them, I loved to watch them enteract with each other. Their love was a  silly and sweet love that ran deep. I will miss his smile and his gruff hello followed by a huge hug and kiss on the cheek. He always made me laugh. He left behind a strong legacy. I will miss him. Still in sadness, I say God is good.

Wednesday, May 25, 2016

Deviled Eggs

Bob and I are in NJ for the night. Tomorrow, we will be attending the funeral for our beloved Uncle Bob. When we arrived my Mother in Law was in the process of making deviled eggs. We sat for a while with the tedious process of taking the shell off. She commented that she didn't realize that they were a lot harder to make then she had originally thought. Bob replied that working for the devil is a lot harder than most people think. It was said in tounge in cheek, but he's right. I would rather live my life for Christ and take up his cross than spend it in miserable darkness. God is good.

Tuesday, May 24, 2016

Keeping It Alive

This year will mark Bob and I's 10 year wedding anniversary. It doesn't seem like it's been 10 years. I was thinking about this during our Home Bible Study group. We still like to hold hands and cuddle. None of that ever went away. I still get butterflies in my stomach when I glance his way while driving together in the car. We have had our life trials and we will have more. The key is that we work at keeping it alive. The moment we lose the romance and the praying together, will be the moment we unravel. I'm glad I married him. I have to say these past weeks, he has been amazing. A lot of husbands would not do for their Mother in Law like mine has. He's a good man and God truly did put us together. I appreciate him and am thankful that we are still keeping our marriage strong and alive. God is good.

Monday, May 23, 2016

Not Weary

This Sunday Bishop Davis gave his usual exhortation to the church congregation. I love it when he speaks and more often than not, he ministers to me. He talked about not being weary in well doing. God's faithfulness is unchallenged. Don't get weary when you are praying for something and the answer doesn't' come right away. Keep on calling on the Lord, he will answer. I appreciated his words on Sunday. We are praying and believing for a complete healing in my mom's body. She is improving every day, not as fast as she would like but she is improving. I love my mom and I know God is with her. God is good.

Sunday, May 22, 2016

God Has An Open House

Today my mom felt well enough to attend church with us. We were so happy she was able to go out. She's not able to do what she used to do. She gave a lot of effort and was able to clap her hands a little. I was glad to see her left hand was able to move some. She was wore out by the time service was over. She's resting now. I'm so glad she is here with us. We had a guest speaker today at church. Bro and Sis Sully are missionaries to Senegal, Africa. They both spoke and before Bro. Sully preached, they showed a video presentation about the people of Senegal. Once the presentation was finished, he preached an outstanding sermon on the subject of, "God Has An Open House". His main text was taken from Acts 8:26-35. An Ethiopian Eunuch traveled many miles to Jerusalem in search of God. He was turned away at the door because he was a Eunuch and because he was an outsider. He went away sad, but kept reading Isiah chapter 53 that God cared about him. As he was reading he was in his chariot in the desert. Phillip came by and saw how he was so focused on what he was reading. Phillip began to tell him that it was for him. It didn't matter the hurt that had been done to him. Every law that says you are not welcome in the house of God was nailed to the cross. Every sin has been washed away in the blood of the lamb. God's house is an open house. The stripes on Jesus' back is what heals us. No matter the physical, emotional or mental hurt, God wants to heal you. The Eunuch was so excited, he asked what was keeping Phillip from baptizing him. They came across some water in the desert and Phillip baptized him. At that moment, the Ethiopian was changed forever. God made a way for him in the desert. God knows right where you are at. When it seems like there is no hope, like everything is taken from you, God cares and he will meet you where you are at. God is good.

Saturday, May 21, 2016

Welcome To Our Home

A huge thank you to Delta Airlines for their outstanding service today.  Early this morning Bob picked Wally up and the two of them made their way by car back to NY. Mom and I flew via Delta Airlines back to NY. The crew was aware that she recently had a stroke and they went above and beyond to make sure she was comfortable. She fell peacefully asleep during the flight. When we arrived at the airport, Ross and RJ were waiting with a sight that said "Welcome To Our Home". It was so sweet. It's all a bit overwhelming for her. Such huge changes. Please continue to keep her in your prayers. Her body needs a lot of healing. We are glad she's here with us.  God is good.

Friday, May 20, 2016

Life Changes

We arrived this afternoon in TN and started packing my mom's things for her. She's doing pretty good considering she just had a stroke. This is a big change for her and I hope and pray it's a good one. I want her to rest and allow her body to heal. I believe she will be out and about like she used to be. She still needs a lot of prayer. Tomorrow we fly to NY. Please keep Bob in your prayers as he and her dog Wally make the drive back to NY. I'm glad to have my mom with me. We pray for traveling mercy's. God is good. 

Thursday, May 19, 2016

Giants Resting

Presently we are still on the road headed to TN. We are bringing my mom home to NY to live with us. The sites have been beautiful. One such place took my breath away. It was a huge castle with the sun setting behind it. It made me think of two "giants" in my life. One was Bro. Edwin Judd. He was a great man in the Kingdom of Heaven. I will never forget the day he friend requested me on Facebook and I was honored to be connected with him not just on social media but in life. The other "giant" is my husband's uncle Bob. He was larger than life and always put a smile on my face. He passed away today.  Our hearts break for the family and for such a great loss. The sun has set on two giants,may they rest in peace. God is good.

Wednesday, May 18, 2016

Ready For Mom

Today we finished moving RJ's things upstairs. His new bed arrived as well as his new blanket. When he came home to see how cool his new room looked, he was very excited. Mom's room is now ready for her as well. I hope she is comfortable and sleeps well in it. She can make the changes she wants once she is here. We are thankful for Ross. He has been a great help and are super proud of him for finishing another semester. He has a bright future ahead of him. Tomorrow Bob and I will start driving to TN to move my mom here to NY. We are ready for Mom. God is good.

Tuesday, May 17, 2016

Last Night

Tonight is the last night that RJ will be sleeping in his room. Tomorrow he will be in his new bedroom on the 2nd floor. I sit here and watch him sleeping and have a mix of emotions. For 8 years I have sat in this corner. When he was a newborn I rocked him in his arms and then placed him in his crib. When he moved to a bed, I sat in the same corner and watched him go into a peaceful sleep. He's excited about his new room and I know soon what little boy that is left will fade away in the new room.  This weekend my mom will be in this room. I will sit in the corner with her and pray with her. I know God is going to heal her body. I'm glad we have a place for her and I know she will be well again. For now, this last night, I will sit quietly in the corner and pray whispered prayers for my sweet boy. God is good.

Monday, May 16, 2016

Green and Blue

We are in full prep mode to get ready for my mom coming to live with us. Tonight, Bob, RJ and Ross started painting the upstairs room. RJ chose angry bird blue and piggy green. I think you can figure out what his theme is going to be. I will
miss having my sweet boy right next to my room. I know he will be ok since Ross will be across the hall from him. We leave later this week to TN to move my mom here. It will be nice having her here and I pray she has a full recovery. There is much to do in a little bit of time. Please continue to keep my mom in your prayers. God is good.

Sunday, May 15, 2016

Having Hope

Today we attended service in NJ at Solid Rock UPCI. Bro. McClean preached a very good message on hope. We all go through things in life. We can have a hope in God that everything is going to be ok. When we go to God in prayer, the answer is already on the way as we are in the process of praying. We can place our trust in God knowning that he works all things for our good. It was an encouraging sermon followed by a refreshing time of prayer in the alter. No matter the situation, keep your eyes on God, he will bring you through it. God is good.

Saturday, May 14, 2016

Pictures On The Mantle

Today we spent the day looking through old pictures to find photos for the fireplace mantle. We wanted to put an individual picture of the seven kids along with a wedding picture of the parents. It took us a while but we managed to put it together. It's still a work in progress but so far it looks nice. My Mother in law likes it and that's what matters the most. We also decided to take her out for an impromptu belated Mother's Day dinner. It's been a good weekend. God is good.

Friday, May 13, 2016

Grandparent's Day 2016

Normally, my mom takes her vacation time and attends Grandparent's Day with RJ. Due to the stroke she was not able to come. Grammy was able to come up and be with him and they had a nice time. My prayer is that next year, both of them will be able to attend the event with him. I'm thankful she was able to be with him. Now, we are in NJ with her. While she and RJ play Bible Go Fish, Bob and I are cozy by the fireplace. God is good.

Thursday, May 12, 2016

Essence of Operation 7:14

This month the Thursday night Bible studies at church are focused lessons. Bro. Darrien is teaching on a series of lessons with the title of, "Essence of Operation 7:14". His main text was from 2 Chronicles 7:14. Our body is the temple of God. When we pray we are to humbly seek God's face. We must realize that we in ourselves can not do it, we need God to help us. We all need God and when we go to him in prayer, that is where the answer is. Pride is the opposite of being humble. Pride goes before destruction. When we make the choice to humble ourselves, God is able to do the work that is needed in our lives. Remember that when you pray to God, your prayers are not lost. They are stored in heaven and God remembers them. Do not doubt what God can do for you. Just as Gideon trusted and followed God, we can trust and follow God. God is good.

Wednesday, May 11, 2016

Prepping, Puppy Antics & Gold

We are in major prepping mode for my mom's soon arrival. Sometimes all the things that need to be done all at once seem to be overwhelming. Of course my sweet puppy decides she wants to add to the chaos by discovering that she can unroll an entire roll of toilet paper. Yes, an entire roll. Today, she pulled it from the bathroom all the way into the living room. She was so proud of herself, I was not. Life changes in an instant and in unexpecting ways. Please continue to pray for my mom. She is improving, but needs a lot of prayer. Today was the last PTA meeting for the year at RJ's school. I have enjoyed being the secretary and am happy they asked me to stay on for the next school year. A gift of thanks was given to me and from the shape of the box, I thought it was a candle. I like candles, so I was pretty happy. When I opened the box, I had tears streaming down my face. It was a round clear stone with the words, "Heart of Gold" inscribed inside. In all the "stuff" life has been throwing this year, I have tried so hard to let Jesus shine through me. I have not always achieved this goal. When I saw this, I was on my knees asking God to not let me lose focus. Asking him to stay at the center of me and everything I do. I'm not perfect, I need him every day. If I can make a positive impact on someone, show the love of Jesus, then I will have done what matters the most. God is good.

Tuesday, May 10, 2016

The Answer Knocking

Tonight started our new weekly home Bible study. We have a new teacher for this session, Bro. Fuoco. Our lesson tonight was about prayer. We read from Acts 12 about when Peter was delivered from the jail by God. The saints were praying for God to deliver Peter and while they were praying, God answered their prayer. Peter knocked on the door and it was as if they didn't believe he was really there. Their answer was knocking on the door and they didn't even realize it. When we pray we must pray believing that God will bring it to pass. If we pray without believing, we can miss what God has for us. God will answer, it will be a yes, a no or a wait, but he will answer. It was a good lesson. Today Bob finished his masterpiece of yardwork in front of the house and in the back. He amazes me on his talents!

Monday, May 09, 2016

Floral Abudance

My husband decided to go all out this year with his Mother's Day Gift to me. He planted about 10 Azaleas, some Arbor Vides and an abundance of Tulips so that next year I will have a breathtaking spring! I'm so excited! Mom will be coming to live with us soon. She loves flowers too and I know she will enjoy watching everything bloom. Big changes are ahead and I have no doubt it's going to be a long road. I'm will travel it with my mom, because she's my mom and I love her. Tonight I give a huge thanks to God for my husband. He really poured his love on me this weekend and it's a gift that will keep giving for a long time. I'm blessed! God is good.

Sunday, May 08, 2016

Eye On The Sparrow

Today is Mother's Day. As a mother it was a wonderful day. As a daughter it was a sad day. My mom is on a slow path towards healing and the road is very bumpy. RJ woke me up this morning by putting sweet Pearl into the bed to wake me up with puppy kisses. I came into the dinning room to see a beautiful Azalea plant or tree as RJ called it, on the table. It was surrounded by lit candles, the blanket my mom made for me, a handmade card by RJ, cup of coffee and chocolates. What a wonderful way to start my day! Bob then made a candle lit breakfast for all of us. The children at church sang a song and of course all the mother's were beaming to see their child sing about Jesus. Pastor preached about the church being the mother and we need to be a part of the body of Christ. I didn't take notes because RJ fell asleep in my lap. I didn't mind this since I have not seen him in a week and I really missed my boy. I know moments like that are few to come by and I soaked it up. I did take notes of when Bishop Davis came up to speak. He started out by singing, "His eye is on the sparrow and I know he watches me." I bawled my eyes out when he sang this. I thought of my mom and all that she is going through and know that God is right there. He cares about her and he cares about me too. If God cares about the sparrow, how much more does he care for his children? Bishop asked that everyone read Isiah chapters 43 to 45. He said to worship God as we read it. We must remember that God keeps his promises and he knows right where we are at. I will keep praising through this storm. I will keep fighting for my mom on my knees in prayer. I can't heal her, only God can. She needs a miracle and I know He watches over her. I'm thankful today that I am a mother. I'm thankful for all the mom's in my life. I love my mom Iris, and I love my adopted mom, Dreama. I also have a wonderful Mother-in-law. I am blessed with an amazing little boy and a husband who truly cares for me. I appreciate Ross and of course I can't forget my sweet puppy Pearl. In everything give thanks and I choose joy. You can listen to "His Eye is On The Sparrow" here. God is good.

Saturday, May 07, 2016

Flowers

Bob and I arrived safely home today. After I gave RJ lots of hugs, he proudly took me outside to show me a surprise. He and Ross had gone to the church plant sale and bought me flowers! I didn't think we would be doing it this year since I had been in TN with my mom. It was a nice surprise and I enjoyed planting my flowers. I wish my mom had been with me. I saved her a pot, so when she is here with us, we can plant flowers in it together. I'm looking forward to being in church tomorrow and celebrating Mother's Day with the sweetest gift God gave me, RJ. I'm glad to be home. Please continue to pray for my mom. I know God is with her and she will get better day by day. God is good.

Friday, May 06, 2016

Heading Home

This morning I said my goodbyes to my mom and started the drive back to NY. The Physical Therapy Rehab place is very nice and I'm confident she will pull out of this. The doctor feels that she should be able to get back to total use of her body. It will take time and a lot of intense physical therapy. The stroke has impacted a lot of her life and changed it forever. I pray God heals her body, mind and wounded spirit. There is good in this somewhere and God will reveal it in time. My mom is in the safe hands of the almighty healer. Today, Bob happened to be in VA for business, he met up with me along the way and is now driving home with me. I'm so thankful for him. God is good.

Thursday, May 05, 2016

Going Home

Tomorrow, I will head back home. I miss my husband and RJ. I will be hugging my mom goodbye and trusting her in the hands of the Physical Therapy Rehab Center. They have been pretty awesome with my mom. Mom's sparkle is hidden behind disappointment and anger over her present situation. It's hard seeing her this way.  I know God is with her and she will come through this. I can't wait to be in my husbands arms, I really need him. In everything we are to give thanks. Today it has been hard to do that. I will still give him thanks because she is alive and on the mend. God is good.

Wednesday, May 04, 2016

Beautiful Rehab

Today, we learned unexpectedly that my mom could leave the hospital today and go right to rehab. I don't like the idea of leaving her, but I know it will be for a short time. The place looks great and everyone seemed to be very nice. She was so tired that she fell asleep on the bed immediately. I hope tomorrow will be a good day for her. My mom deserves the best and I just hope I can make it happen for her. I'm thankful that she is out of the hospital and on her way to recovery. God is good.

Tuesday, May 03, 2016

The Sparkle Came

Last night was a rough night for my mom and I had no idea what the next day would bring. As the sun's rays broke through the clouds I caught a glimpse of her sparkle. Then all the prayers being prayed poured from heaven on my mom and there she was. Fully and completely with me. It got better from there. She got out of the bed and walked very slowly. She was wobbly and the nurse and I were right there, but she was standing on her own! The day just kept blooming for her. The doctor decided that she could be released once we had clearance from the NY Physical Rehabilitation Facility. Unfortunately we found out that TN insurance is not compatible with NY insurance. We would have to wait until next month to get her into the next step for her. I was so upset when I heard this. The doctor told us that she can get into a place near here and once she was able to leave, I can then bring her to NY. She will still need to be with someone once she is out of the rehab. Thankfully she is strong enough that she can leave the hospital. Sweet Kim who has become like a sister to me will check on her and also,my sister Lisa is going to stay in TN a while longer to keep an eye on her. Once she is settled into the rehab, I will head home to NY and prepare for her move to be with us. I'm beyond thankful for all the prayers. God litterary turned it all around for her. I'm so glad she is back. Each step is a miracle from God. I'm so thankful she is alive! God is good.

Monday, May 02, 2016

Looking For Her Sparkle

Today was a better day for the most part for my mom. The stroke has impacted not just her body, but her mind as well. Her moods swing rapidly and at times do not match the situation at the moment. I'm doing my best to ride the waves and walk the labyrinth in her mind with her. I'm a fierce guardian of her because I want her well enough to leave the hospital. No visitors were allowed today and it was a good choice for her. I don't know if the doctor will make the same decision tomorrow or not. Her brain will heal in time and as it does the roller coaster in her mind will smooth out. Thankfully today she did not have any mild strokes, this is a good sign. The hope is that she maintains this and she can leave the hospital on Wednesday and we can be on our way to NY. If I could I would jet her there, but I can't. I will take it slow on the drive and pray her spirits are much better than they are now.
She wants life to be as it was and this stroke has changed everything for her. We have a long road ahead of us and can use all the prayers we can get. I want to see the sparkle in her eyes again. God is good.

Sunday, May 01, 2016

Walking In The Valley

Today since my mom is in the hospital she watched the church service online. She kept saying she is walking in the valley right now. I wish I could say she's doing great tonight, but she isn't. The day started out great and then she had a mild relapse. For now it needs to stay quiet and she can't have a lot of excitement. The nurses here have been great and they are very attentive to any changes that take place, no matter how minor it may seem.  My main focus is her being well enough to go into physical therapy. My mom has given of herself to so many people. I want to see her able to rest and enjoy life. She deserves so much more than a hospital bed. Yes, mom you are in the valley right now, but I know God is with you in this valley and he will carry you to the mountaintop. God is good.