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I started this blog several years ago as an outlet. To whomever reads my blog, I hope you are encouraged. I do my best to keep it short, so it can be a breath of fresh air.

Monday, October 31, 2011

Faith Builder

So...yesterday the first thing RJ wanted to know is if the sun did come out and melt the snow. He was very happy to see that he did indeed hear from God and the snow was melting away. To solidify his faith that God does hear him, during alter service they sang his favorite song. He was soaring and on cloud nine the rest of the day. So tonight, he prayed a very special prayer. He thanked Jesus for giving him a baby sister. It's been a while since he has said that prayer because he felt like God did not hear him and that he must not know how to pray because he still did not have a baby sister. I am so glad He has faith in God and we are believing with RJ that God is going to give us another baby!
God is Good!

Saturday, October 29, 2011

October Snow

So...as I am sure the whole NY world is abuzz about how it is snowing in NY. RJ at first was so excited he could not contain himself. He went outside and caught flakes on his tongue and was stomping in the puddles. It was rather strange to see snow flakes covering yellow fall leaves. He kept asking why it was snowing in the fall. I did not have a good answer for him and told him to ask God. About 30 minutes later he says to me: " So, Mom...I talked to God about the snow. I told Him I liked it, but didn't like it too because the snow was killing all the pretty flowers in the back yard. He told me he was going to make it stop. So..if God said it, He will do it. I'm so happy to have snow and I'm so happy the sun is going to come out tomorrow and dry up all the snow!"
Well..I like his faith.
God is Good!

Friday, October 28, 2011

Simple 100

This post is my hundredth post. I was trying to think of something witty to write or deep and moving. However I want to make is one of thanksgiving for the simple things. In a couple of days it will be November and many will began to reflect on the things they are thankful for. Tonight I was thinking how thankful I am for the small things. I am VERY thankful for the Big things...however it's the small things that make our own personal world work smoothly. For instance, the temperature has dropped and it's very cold outside. I am inside with my feet up on the couch in a warm/toasty house. Today has been filled with much laughter and I am relaxed drinking a cup of tea. Such simple things, but so very important. The best of all these things is that the simple things are filled with the peace of God in my life.
I'm so grateful for His Mercy and Grace..they may seem small, but are HUGE in what they cover and carry. Take a moment and give thanks for the simple things going on around you. You almost miss the importance of them, but if they were not there, things would not "be" right.
Give your loved one a hug and tell them how much you love them and appreciate them. Something so simple is so profound.
God is Good!

Thursday, October 27, 2011

The Story of Ruth(RJ Version)

We gathered that in Thursday night class tonight,they were teaching about Ruth in the Bible because he said : " So Mom..do you know the story about Ruth? Well, she was so poor she had zero..like this mom, look zero (he makes a zero with his fingers)do you know that zero is nothing..she had zero, nothing. Well..she went and picked up some wheat and made bread..did you know you can't eat wheat? Well..she had nothing and then she had wheat and then she had bread. All the people were hungry, but she had wheat. Yeah..that's the story of Ruth. I like the name Ruth, that's a good name."

We will be working on finishing the story of Ruth with him.
I was thinking tonight about how glad I am that RJ talks about helping others, talks a lot about God and things/stories from the Bible. In this day and age that is not a common thing or topic for children. Most kids his age are into robots, super heroes and many things that have no mention of God. We are choosing to raise him in a way that God is a part of who he is. He stands out in a crowd of children just in what he talks about and what moves his heart. Some parents may think I'm a radical because I want to immerse him in church and God. I think now more than ever, I need to surround him with the God life and language. Yes, he knows about cars and other stuff, but we guard him in what he allow him to watch. We are different, I am not ashamed of it.
God is Good!

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Gift From The Heart

This morning RJ sat down with us and said this: " I have a lot of toys. I need to give some of them to the Orphanage. It would make me feel so happy inside in my heart."

So today after school, we went through his toy boxes and he went through ALL is hot wheels and we ended up with some good toys. He wants to send them to Tuepelo Children's Mansion in Mississippi.

My heart soars with the person he is becoming. He knows that giving is a good thing. I am so proud of him and so happy!
God is Good!

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Anniversary Surprise

Yesterday and today Bob and RJ went for a ride and were gone for several hours both days. They came in last night whispering of a surprise for Mommy. This morning RJ was just bursting to tell me what it was, but Bob told him he had to keep it a secret until tonight.
They came home tonight with a dozen roses, a chocolate cake with a cherry on top and a box of Godiva chocolate. Our Anniversary was earlier this month, but since my husband had been traveling and then we had RJ's birthday party, he had not had time to get me the gifts he wanted to get. It was so much more special to me because RJ was a part of the process of picking everything out. It has been a wonderful 5 years and I'm thankful for my husband. Life has thrown us some bumps in the road, but they caused us to be closer and made our marriage stronger. The best part of this, is that RJ is learning from his dad how to be a good husband. Mixed in all this, they had a wonderful time building a relationship as father and son.
Just as my husband is still courting me, Jesus is still courting us. He loves us and if we stop and take time, we can feel and see His love all around us.
God is Good!

Monday, October 24, 2011

Sis T's Orphans

Lately RJ has been focusing his prayers on Sis T ( Twyla Tolstad Missionary to Uganda). Tonight was a real tear jerker. He did his normal God bless Daddy and Mommy and then said this prayer: " Thank you Jesus for Sis T. God bless her and all her Orphans. God Forgive..I mean thank you Jesus please for sending a bunch of her orphans here to my house. God bless her and thank you Jesus for the orphans and that one of them is going to be my baby sister.Thank you Jesus."

Wow..I had tears streaming down my face when he was done. Such simple and sweet faith. I pray God gives him his desire for a baby sister. Who knows....God does.
God is Good!

Sunday, October 23, 2011

The Quad

We decided to go to NJ this weekend. It was a short trip, but we did enjoy time with the family. While there, RJ kept begging his dad to take him for a ride through the woods on Uncle Joe's Quad. The picture I took of them before they rode off was priceless. It's good to take time off and "play" and be with your family.
God is Good!

Saturday, October 22, 2011

Coonskin Cap

Early this morning Bob came home from his trip. Rj was so happy to see his daddy! Of course after giving his daddy a big hug, he wanted to know where his present was. Bob brought back a racoon hat with a tail!! Rj is loving walking around with it on. All worries are gone, all is well because his daddy is home and his daddy loves him..
God is Good!

Friday, October 21, 2011

Sweet Friday

I look forward to Friday. Friday is the day that after I drop RJ off at school, I come home and spend focused time in prayer. I try to pray and read my Bible every day, but on Friday it's a date with the Lord. I shut all media off and forget about the time and sit down and chat with my Heavenly Father. These moments are very precious to me and always leave me feeling rested and peaceful.
Another reason I like Friday is because when I pick RJ up from school, he and I have a Starbucks date. We go to the same location and try to sit in the same spot. RJ is very picky about chocolate milk, but loves Starbucks chocolate milk. I get a wonderful cup of coffee and then RJ picks out a
"snack" and it's different every time. I treasure these moments, because once we sit down, he starts to talk about his week and whatever is on his mind/heart. Today when we went to have our "date" it was packed more than normal and it looked like we did not have a seat. A very nice man told us we could share his table with him and another lady. The nice lady was reading a book and the young man was reading from his IPad. We sat down and this is how it went:
Me: " RJ, do you have anything you want to talk about?"
RJ: " No, Mom, not today, I have nothing to say, everything is fine."
Me: " Are you sure?"
RJ: " Mom..I told you, I'm fine."
Me: " Ok...if you say so."
RJ: " Fine Mom..if you want to talk, I do have something to say. I don't like hot luch on Friday and I need you to pack me a lunch, because if I don't have my lunch box, I don't eat and I get very hungry."
Me: " Why didn't you tell me earlier?:
RJ: " Well, I'm telling you now."
Me: " Anything else you want to say?"
RJ : " Yes....I don't think Daddy loves me because he is gone a lot and how come some people don't go to church and doesn't that guy outside know he is going to die because he is smoking a cigarette."

Wow.. needless to say, I eased his fears about his dad and let him know that his daddy loves him very much and that is why he works so hard.( I told Bob about this tonight on the phone and he is going to set aside a daddy day very soon) I told him not everyone goes to church and did my best to explain the smoker situation.
He was quiet and then said:" Ok MOM...that's enough, I'm done, I have nothing else to say."
We finished our drinks in peace and then when we were done, left.
The two people are our table, I could tell were having a hard time not laughing out loud. I think we were of great entertainment to them today.
Parents, if you make the time, your children will talk to you. I hope since I am starting this now, that when RJ is older, he will open up to me and share his heart and thoughts. If he knows now that I care, he will remember later during the rough years of teenage life.
God is Good!

Thursday, October 20, 2011

"Auntie"

Our beloved Christina Tate has returned from her time in Belgium. RJ happens to adore her and I didn't tell him she was back. I wanted to surprise him by bringing her to school with me when I picked him up. At first he didn't even "see" her. Until I told him to look up and see who was with me. His face was priceless. The pure joy and happiness at seeing her, actually brought tears to my eyes. He made the happy face and then threw his arms around her. It truly was a very sweet moment. She spent the rest of the day with us and when she went home, he was very sad. He wants her to stay with us forever. I think when he realizes she is going to be around for a while, he is going to be a very happy little boy. I was thinking today how thankful I am for the church. My family live in different states and at times I really miss them. Thankfully at my church, I have been able to form some true friendships. One of them happens to be Christina. He loves her like she was his own flesh and blood. Every child needs that Auntie love...I am so thankful he has his Aunt Claudia ( my sister in law), Auntie Nell Nell and Auntie Christina here in NY. The church truly does become your family-your home away from home.
God is Good!

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Sick Day/ Sis T

So today RJ wanted to have a sick day and asked to stay home. I figured since he is only 4 and I'm blessed to be a stay at home mom, why not. Besides, he does have a runny nose. Well, I am wiped out and my pocketbook is minus $40! At least, he won't be sharing his cold with anyone else and we did have lots of fun together...add to it the yummy crepe we shared!
Tonight, as we said our prayers and we told him that since he is 4 now, he needs to say more than a God bless so and so. This was his prayer tonight: " Thank you Jesus for Sis. T. I ask that you heal her, protect her and do not let her die."
Sis T, if you are reading this..know RJ has covered you with his prayers. Angels are going to watch over you while you are in Uganda!
God is Good!

Monday, October 17, 2011

The Frogs

Tonight in our nightly Bible reading RJ requested to hear the story about the frogs ( He was referring to Moses and the plagues). Bob was reading about all the different places that the frogs would appear as a plague. RJ was very quiet and then sits up and gives his own version of where the plague of frogs will be: " And God said it was going to rain frogs every day in New York. They will be on your glasses, on your Bibles, on your nose, in your mouth, your eyes and even in your underpants!"
Yes, RJ is now 4, here we go, look out world here he comes.
God is Good!

Sunday, October 16, 2011

The Faith Dress

A very good friend of mine gave me a special present today. She gave me a pretty pink dress sized 3 to 6 months. Now that may seem strange since at this time I am not pregnant. She being a good and dear friend knows that for years we have been trying to have another child and that my heart's desire is to have a girl. I have had many people tell me they have had dreams of my daughter. Their descriptions are identical, they all describe the same girl. For a while I had a faith dress and I thanked God for His promises. After my 2nd miscarriage, I became so discouraged and heartbroken that I packed the dress away. Recently I lost another and just felt like maybe God had forgotten me. When she gave me the dress this morning in church, it sparked something inside of me that I have not felt in a long time. Faith, hope and a joy for the expected promises of God. I hung up this pretty, pink dress in my closet, so that every time I get something to wear, I see that dress. I am going to thank the Lord in advance for my daughter that will one day wear the precious dress.
Don't let the cares of life steal your dreams or those things you hold dear. God promised in His word that if you seek Him first, He will give you the desires of your heart. I do my best to put that in practice. I once again feel the hope inside of me.
God is Good!

Saturday, October 15, 2011

4th Bday Party-Amazing Day

Monday was RJ's birthday, but we celebrated it today in our backyard. Normally we have his party in NJ with family, but this year he asked if he could have it in NY with his friends from school and church. We had about 25 kids attend along with their parents. Bob was able to finish the tree house in time and the kids had a blast! The boys all crammed in and jumped up an down and then the girls went in and were screaming on the top of their lungs. We had Pumpkin Painting, A PiƱata, YUMMY Birthday cake and opening of presents. The weather was perfect ( We prayed together as a family for good weather and God heard us!). Bob was a great chef on the BarBQ and there was plenty of food for everyone. It seemed like everyone was having a wonderful time. I could not have asked for a better time of celebration. I truly appreciate all the parents who took my camera and took pictures and also video for me. I have some very wonderful pictures and this time I'm actually in them. After the celebration, RJ came inside with all his new presents and the neighbor boys came over and along with his Uncle Tim and Aunt Claudia, showed him how to put his toys together and played with him. It truly was an amazing day and I know RJ was happy because he crawled into my lap and gave me a big kiss and told me how much he loved me and that his party was just perfect.
God is Good!

Friday, October 14, 2011

5 Years

Today is our 5th Wedding Anniversary. I am happy to say my husband didn't forget. In fact he drove 10 hours from Canada in the rain last night, so he could be home for our Anniversary. We enjoyed a lovely dinner ( Thank you Lou and Adrieanne for watching RJ)at Cafe Farmagio, yummy food! We would have liked a quieter place, but all in all it was very nice to be together. The past 5 years have gone by very quickly. I look forward to the next years to come. I can say that our love has grown. I still get the butterflies in my stomach and I still feel the spark. OOH and the older he gets the more handsome he becomes!
There is something of depth that was not there when we first said our vows. We have had some big trials that have come our way, but those things only brought us closer. I'm so glad that I married him. He has truly balanced me in many ways. There is no such thing as the perfect guy, but there is the perfect guy for me as a person. I'm a better person because of being married to him. The best thing I can say is that God was first in our lives on day one of being married and He still is number one. God is the cord that entwines us together.
Thank you Lord for a good, God fearing man, who loves me.
God is Good!

Thursday, October 13, 2011

T.G.I.T

Thank God It's Thursday has been a much desired event for RJ. On Thursday nights during adult Bible Study children from the ages 4 and up to the teenagers attend separate classes. RJ for a year now has been begging to go and I told him he had to wait. Well now that he is 4, he gets to attend. He arrived with Bible and offering in hand. He was so serious and sat down and opened his Bible ready for class. It seems as if over night my baby has morphed into this little boy. I will admit that it was wonderful to enjoy an entire lesson and actually know what the teaching was about. I usually get snippets in-between attending to RJ. When it was alter time, I slipped out and figured I would get him out of class. He was happily coloring and explained to me that he was fine and not ready to go yet. I went back inside wondering once again where my baby boy had gone. When I picked him up he had a packed "lunch" for me to eat tomorrow. He also told me that he was going to help me mop the floor! I'm thrilled he likes class on Thursday nights, so TGIT! To top off a perfect night for him, Tara from our church gave him some wonderful birthday presents.
God is Good!

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

RJ and Sis T

A couple of weeks ago Missionaries Phil and Twyla Tolstad stayed with us. RJ is your typical toddler in his verbal observations. When Sis T walked through the door the first thing he said to her was: " You are very fat and very old!" Of course I was mortified and wanted to crawl under a rock somewhere and hide. She being the wonderful lady she is didn't skip a beat and replied: " In Africa, where I am from, if they tell you, you are fat, they are giving you a compliment. In Africa if you are fat, you must be wealthy because you have food to eat and if you are old, you are healthy and wise because you have lived a long life." He took it in stride and thus began a very special relationship between RJ and Sis T. He moped around the house for a whole day after they were gone and mentions them very often. Last night, took the cake. Normally when we say our prayers, he will "God Bless" one person. It's usually Louis or Daddy..sometimes it's me. He floored us when he in a very serious manner prayed: " Thank you Jesus and God Bless Sis T. Help her to not be fat anymore and please bless her so that she won't be old anymore but become a baby. Amen"
We made sure we did not laugh and told him that was a wonderful prayer. I his own way, he was asking God to bless her. It was so cute and very funny.
Children are very aware of what is going on around them. You may think they are not listening, but they are. Pour good things into their minds and hearts and good things will eventually come out.
God is Good!

Monday, October 10, 2011

4th Birthday

Today was a very big day for RJ, he turned 4. When he woke up he came running into the living room shouting I am four, I am four years old today! He was thrilled with what we had waiting for him. On the coffee table were sunflowers. On the dinning room table were four Happy Birthday balloons and a present from us. On his chair was a huge sign that read " Happy 4th Birthday RJ" He truly was so happy! We spent the day doing what he wanted. This was his day: Breakfast with daddy and mommy, Playing in the back yard with his new rainbow maker,A play date at the park with his best buddy Louis, Hot dog/fries/soda(grandma sent $) for lunch while we watched the dancing water fountain, A very long and AWESOME jam session at the Guitar Center, A trip to ToysRUs to buy whatever he wanted(grandma sent $), followed by the dinner of his choice of : Gnocchi, Tortellini, Chicken Nuggets, Rice,Pork Chops and a Coke, and then Nemo with Daddy on the couch. It was a wonderful and happy day finished off with prayer.
I am so thankful that we had a Sunshine Day!
God is Good!!

Sunday, October 09, 2011

Instant Praise

Today RJ wanted to stay in the church service with us. The Praise and Worship was intense. When the youth choir sang, I thought it was going to be one of those services where there was no preaching. However, things calmed down a bit and Rev. Jonathan Walker preached an awesome sermon on God's mercy and grace and how He gives us the strength to leap up and become over/on top of the high places in our lives that keep us from being who we need to be in Christ. RJ fell asleep right before the preaching. When the Praise team started to sing for the alter call, He sprang up from my lap with his hand's raise and in an instant was clapping his hand and praising the Lord. He was so joyful and his praise was instant.
My mommy heart was overflowing with the sight of my little boy praising the Lord. We live in a day an age where more and more children are distracted by things that really don't matter. Things that make you happy for a moment, but don't last. Today I saw true joy on his face and it has lasted into the evening. People may think we are a bit fanatical when it comes to the things of God. I wouldn't trade the joy I saw on his face today for any other way of life. God gives perfect joy and peace.
God is Good!

Friday, October 07, 2011

Shoes

RJ it seems is growing rapidly. In September I needed to purchase him new tennis shoes. Today I realized this his new shoes were now too tight. I guessed he would now be a size 10 1/2. I was right..however..in tennis shoes a size 11 were the perfect fit. Boys are much different than girls in the fact that they don't need a lot of shoes...unless they are RJ. He likes to give them names too. He has his Peanut Butter shoes ( brown suede), Licorice shoes(black dress church shoes) , flip flop, boots, bug sandals and now his new daddy shoes that make him do the shake the earth run. He really wants rainbow shoes. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. Who knows, maybe when I finally have my girl, she may only want one pair of shoes! With my luck she will hate pink..sigh...all kidding aside. I was thanking the Lord today that I could buy RJ shoes. Now if you know me, I got them on sale and used a coupon too! I was very happy with the deal and with the price. More so than that, I truly was giving thanks that I was able to get him something so simple as a shoe. When we ask God for bread, He does not give us a stone. He takes care of the simplest of needs.
God is Good!

Tuesday, October 04, 2011

Nap Time

When RJ had his 3 year old check up his doctor informed me that nap's would start to go away. Thankfully, they stayed around, at least until recently. In the past after we went on one of our "rides" in the car and he would fall asleep, I would easily transfer him from car to bed. I loved these naps because I was able to get rest as well or put the laundry away still folded. Recently when he has fallen asleep, I lay him down in his bed, he sits right up and in a daze proclaims, he is not sleeping. He proceeds to be a bit grumpy the rest of the day. Today I discovered how to keep him asleep. The key is to keep him sitting up. So, today, I took him out of the car and put him carefully on the couch. He slept sitting up on the couch for a hour and woke up rested and happy. I'm not sure how much longer that will last, but for now, it will do. Soon he will be 4, I am sure I will need to be more creative on making sure he get's a nap in, because if he doesn't then he misses out on precious time with his daddy in the evenings.
God is Good!

Sunday, October 02, 2011

"Just Ruined"

The other day I was asking RJ what he wanted for his 4th birthday. He thought about it and replied: " I want a yellow piggy bank. That's all I want and if I don't get it, my birthday will be just ruined." He was not being bratty when he said it, he was telling me what his heart's desire was. Tonight while we were having a yummy dinner at Tim and Claudia's house ( Bob's mom/dad and Claudia's mom and step dad were there too) RJ's Grammy gave him his birthday present. He was so happy when he opened up the gift to see a yellow piggy bank. She had taken a pink piggy bank and painted it yellow. He was hugging it and saying this is all I wanted for my birthday. It truly was sweet. A simple request was granted by his loving Grandmother.
What is your heart's desire? Do you make your request known to the Lord? He tells us to ask for it and it shall be given, to knock on the door and it will be opened. Go to your Heavenly Father and make your request known. Thank Him for it in advance and worship Him in faith that He will bring it to pass. Don't get frustrated when it does not happen right away. God is never late, He is always right on time!
God is Good!

Saturday, October 01, 2011

Phillip and Twyla Tolstad

People come and go in your life. Some make a mark, some make a memory, some just pass through and then there are others who in a short time become a part of you and fill a space in your heart. Missionaries Phillip and Twyla Tolstad are two such people, who have filled our hearts. RJ truly grew to love them deeply. In his sweet 3 year old way he told me he wanted to go with them on their three services on Sunday and would come back next week. He even mentioned he wanted to go to Uganda with them. It was a real tear jerker when he was telling Sis. T he would miss her if she didn't come back. I know this house will miss them greatly and I am sure there are many other lives they have touched in the same way. I am so thankful that we were able to have our paths cross. We have grown to love them dearly and pray that God keeps them safe on their travels and safe in Uganda as well.
If you read this blog and would like to give in support to the schools and orphanages that they run, please let me know and I will give you the information you need. The Tolstad's are special and wonderful people who sacrifice much and give of themselves to the people of Uganda.
God is Good!